Ninie Ahmad: Off her yoga mat.

Her affirmations of staying optimistic especially when she's (upside) down.

‘Yoga teaches us to cure what need not be endured and endure what cannot be cured.’ ~BKS Iyengar

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I had an interesting long talk with a member of BE Yoga during a quiet class earlier this week. Her name is Sue Ng, her cheeks glow with pink happiness, her words are honest, her presence and speech are as eloquent as a beauty queen and we can’t stop chatting on our business similarities and hardships as she just opened her restaurant about the same time BE Yoga opened.

We were exchanging stories about yoga retreats in India  from what I read in Eat, Love, Pray spiced with secondhand experience from my fellow yoga teachers and her firsthand experience of having been to India earlier this year following this ‘dream’ she had one night.

She was sharing her share of ‘wanting to change‘ and ‘seeing the light‘ upon being there, as I shared my fear of, ‘what happens IF I don’t want to drive a car, wear fancy adidas yogawear and get married anymore?‘ upon returning back from India if I can collect enough guts to actually go to India (Mysore hopefully) in the nearest future.

We had a good laugh yet painful reality check as we traded and agreed on this irony,

  • Sue opened her restaurant and shortly after, developed gastric problem she never had before AND
  • I, opened a yoga centre and immediately after, my stress level shot so high that my body (immune system) is attacking almost everything I eat!

Given a choice now, I will be happier to stick to simply teaching yoga as when money is involved, it gets ugly.

Having announced that though, I would NOT trade this experience of having sold my car to keep BE Yoga alive, having sacrificed my dignity and sanity to ensure my team loves and looks yoga, having met wonderful people and angels in human form as I crawl my way up and struggle for another breath when I’m on the brink of drowning – for anything else in the world and I am very excited to face what else is lined up for me, BRING IT ON!

This tunnel I am still driving through still seems endless and so far, I am not sure if I have enough fuel to reach its end but I am sure I will still have my spine and my breaths to keep me alive.

This bumpy road (and expensive highway tunnel) will definitely make me a stronger yogi, a more humble yoga teacher and a better person when I do see the light and rainbow (in form of WETHER investment returned, being a personal yoga instructor to British rockstars ;D, getting to volunteer at a remote orphanage as long as I could OR even settling down as a mother with two beautiful daughters, I don’t know and get ever so curious) at the end, I’m sure.

I breathe this wisdom by one of the greatest yoga teacher in this lifetime (I hope I will be lucky enough to meet), Guruji Iyengar – everytime I feel so drained, tired and low

“Yoga teaches us to cure what need not be endured and endure what cannot be cured.”

and I move by the love and kindness around me anytime I feel I have nothing else to smile for.

Love, hope and optimism (for RM400,000 to fall from my sky this weekend).

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Written by Ninie Ahmad

November 19, 2009 at 1:10 AM

5 Responses

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  1. I visit often, even from the previous site you had. I write to say good job. Your practice and dedication to your practice is inspiring. BTW, I practice yoga in my home on my sparse living room floor.

    Christopher

    November 20, 2009 at 5:11 AM

  2. Hang in there Ninie! I admire you for what you have done so far, something I will never be able to even start! 🙂

    Kat

    November 20, 2009 at 2:25 PM

  3. Well said, Ninie. Reminds me of the Serenity Prayer too: “God (or, the Universe, or whatever’s applicable) grant me the serenity
    to accept the things I cannot change;
    courage to change the things I can;
    and wisdom to know the difference.”

    🙂

    Life for Beginners

    November 20, 2009 at 3:35 PM

  4. renunciation at any level is a gradual process not to be forced.it evolved in accordance with acceptance on your side.if not driving a car fits u than at that point in time u would have been at peace with it.

    tee heng giap

    November 22, 2009 at 9:39 AM

  5. Namaste Ninie, and greetings of smiles from India! Was just catching up with your older posts and wanted to say (as belated as it was) that you just keep to what your heart shouts out at you. I’m sorry to see that despite your purest of intentions, so many people still showered your life with lame musings such as weight, hair length, and minuscule concerns… I for one, find you immensely special and hope you will continue to share your yogic knowledge with us on this site.

    I still can’t do my nataraja perfectly but within my own ahimsa limits, I think it’s pretty ok! 🙂 You have inspired me with how creative yoga can be in one’s life. Hope you get to India one day. I’ve been doing the dusty backpacking here off the usual route for a couple of months now, and it’s one awesome planet in a continent.

    Until next time in this big space, namaste

    Vivien

    December 16, 2009 at 2:50 AM


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